still cant...

i rili feel peace yesterday...
but 2day...
i cant control myself...
when i c her...
feel sad n hurt again...
i rili cant control myself...
y will lyk dat leh?
we din talk at all 2day...
feel so strange 2day...
i'm so moodless but duno her loh...
she everyday differ wan...

den at de stupid sc period...
haiz...
we do experiment about electrostatic...
at a part of de experiment nid 1 gal 1 boy d...
i dun wan kena bcoz i noe i kena sure will v tm d...
yesterday juz say those thg nia...
2day sure gt feel 'hai siu' d mah...
but my stupid fren pull me in...
no idea loh...
i muz 'qian' her hand den do experiment loh...
4 sure...
i gt a bit happy...
swt...

but say in truth...
i hope i can hav a hug v her b4 graduate...
i rili rili hope...
but i noe sure cant...
tm very sensitive in dis kind of thg wan...
no chance wan...
juz can imagine it nia...
i even cant hav de chance to b v her...
juz can 4get it...
she is de wan i love most in secondary skul rite now...
i duno will any gal i will love her more den tm appear in my life in secondary skul anot...
mayb will but very very hard...
haiz...

actually...
now hav many gal i gt feel around me...
juz i dun wan to start to chase...
mayb i still cant 4get tm...
i hope i can 4get her 1 day...
now yh oso noe i cant v tm liao...
i tell her d...
mayb in my deep heart still gt a bit wan to be v her...
i oso duno...
all thg i juz can wait...
n i now meet some new gal...
n so faz very fren v them liao...
duno i gt feel anot...
so many feel...
which wan is de real wan...
i can sure tm wan is 100% real wan...
other wan i oni hav 50% sure...
haiz...
suan le ba...

over loh

i thk is over adi...
juz now sms v tm...
she say she din lyk me any more liao...
she dun wan to waste my tym...
so mah lyk dat loh...
i din feel so sad den i expect...
feel so peace...
mayb bcoz i had do de thg dat i not dare to do...
den everythg is over...

but i rili love her...
i oways hope can b v her n c her everyday...
in fren relationship oso can d mah...
i duno i will chase other gal anot...
mayb will n mayb wont loh...
everythg 'sun qi zi ran' ba...

dats not de reason i wan

2day ds tell me dat y tm din love me liao...
dis is bcoz i too close to her...
i dun lyk dis reason n hard to acept it...
dis is not de reason i wan to hear...
mayb she say she gt other ppl to love i will feel beter...
too close to her?
den i ask my mei opinion...
she say when 2 person noe too much of each other will bcum boring den will easy break up...
noe too much of each other?
i can say tm not rili duno me...
she juz noe sumthg about me nia...
wat call noe too much...
i duno her thg oso lah...
very stupid reason...
dis reason make me feel emo nia...

i fren v u more den 2 years adi...
u say we too close...
u all gal rili gai wan...
if duno u den will scold us dat we not care u at all...
too close liao say boring...
wat stupid thg is dat?
every tym i say my hurt is over...
but a new hurt will occur soon...
i very gud in recover it but i'm oso a human being...
so many tym d hurt very painful wan, u noe?
i noe dat u r not de wan make me hurt...
u din do anythg...
juz i 'yi xiang qing yuan'...
i hurt myself...
again n again...
deeper n deeper...
wat i can do now juz b fren v u...
how i gona chase i oso duno...
'suan le ba'...
juz 4get it...
it is useless 4 me to wait de ans...

school concert...

2 days school concert make me very tired...
at de 1st day rili rili very cham...
duno make how many stupid mistake...
i kick tiok mike stand n many thg happen...
such as mike drop, our talking sound is heard, n 4get to open de volume of de mike...
n 4 sure, all of us get scold afetr de concert...
dat day i rili sad n disappointed too...
n i'm so tired of it...
de nez day...
we chg all of our plan...
n at nite, we did it although gt many minor mistake...
many teacher say dat we hav well done...
so all of us very happy...
we take photo v principle n teacher...

i feel so lucky can b my leader assistant...
den i'm de oni form 3 in my group...
i can order form 4 n form 5 members to work...
luckily dey all listen to me...
n i'm de most experience in dat group...
i plan all de thg n run here run there 4 2 days...
i very lucky hav a gud leader...
although he duno much of my plan but he is rili gud n hav a gud leadership...
he teach me a lot of thg n say dat i'm a gud assistant...

at de 1st day...
i 'de zui' de harmonica 'zi hui'...
she complain to my leader dat my 'kou qi' very heavy...
lyk scold her...
dey ask me to say sry to her...
4 sure, i make an apologize to her at nite...
den luckily she say nvm...
n duno y my 2 stupid leader say she is my wife...
ala, lyk dat oso can...
she is a form 5 gal liao...
lyk dat oso can say me d...
gao lat...

Fri din go skul very miss tm loh...
when i'm tired...
i hope she will bside me n giv me support...
but din happen b4...
but gt other ppl support me...
my mei, my scout fren, my leader oso support me...
but gt other ppl scold me run dog(hokkien)...
mana can say me lyk dat d...
i juz din go their duty nia mah...
u all thk dat i rili dun wan go meh...
interact dun hav enuf ppl mah...
haiz...
not de 1st tym u all scold me lyk dat liao...

wat a suck day...

2day is a stupid day n very suck...
all of us argue lyk a shit bcoz of a little thg...
actually it juz a very very normal thg...
hu wan b de ajk juz find de teacher...
den 1st come 1st serve...
de ketua let teacher choose mah ok liao loh...

i thk i had make de wrong thg...
i should not say anythg...
if juz continue let ds b de ketua, mayb dun hav so many problem...
y i muz say ds b ketua will let ys 'bu fu' leh?
den say vote or wat...
haiz...
big mouth!!!
n yh n wj wan oso giv opinion den their name kena delete...
i rili a problem maker...
not helping at all...
although other ppl din say anythg on me but oso feel very sorry...
juz now at skul i kiam kiam cry bcoz of my stupidness...
i cant stop thking of 2day thg whole day...
i will feel very sorry bcoz all of them argue...

at scout...
we dun hav hu is ketua...
but y at 3A will argue until lyk dat leh?
ys hav gud idea...
but he oways giv his opinion at de laz min...
2day all starting very happy d...
but all bcum no mood...
hu b ketua sure gt ppl 'bu fu' d...
but hu is de ketua we oso nid to obey n 4get all other thg...
argue sure hav in a group d mah...
juz c how to dissolve it nia...
hu gt ever c a group never argue wan?
lyk dis oso cant settle how to b in a group?
feel disappointed to dis class n myself...
haiz...

他一定很爱你?

今天读了三篇<<他一定很爱你>>。。。
各篇都讲着不同的故事。。。
看了以后心中突然间有很多的感触。。。
我也不知道为什么。。。
我一向来读短篇爱情故事都会有很多感触。。。
读过后害我在班上变得有点静。。。
他一定很爱你，也把我比下去?
有一篇就讲到一个男生唱这首歌给他的女朋友。。。
因为他觉得自己比不上另一个男生。。。
结果他害那个女生转校了。。。
我觉得那个男生太没用了。。。
他凭什么帮那个女生作决定。。。
就算自己不是什么特别好的男人或比不上别人。。。
也应该相信自己的女朋友啊！

其实我也了解那个男生在想什么。。。
因为我也是个男生。。。
真的是如果我遇到酱的问题。。。
我也不大会处理。。。
自己每天一定会担心自己的女朋友会移情别恋。。。
就算自己有多相信自己的女朋友。。。
唉，爱!

talk more to her liao...

2day feel so happy nia...
talk v her 4 a period...
we almost talk about guide n scout thg...
bcoz i duno wan talk wat v her liao...
feel so comfortable n nice when i'm v her...
duno she still gt lyk me anot...
haiz...
but now v her oso can liao lah...
dun thk too much liao...
nid concentrate in pmr n scout...
but if no her...
i will in low mood...
haha